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So! To the meat of the matter -
I am Boring in Real Life.
If You Believe That, You are A Moron.
But first -
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When your first meeting with me happens to be online, you are hard pressed to feel that I am all shades of exciting. Do not. You would most likely want to meet up sharply and get all the exciting experiences we will have together. Resist the urge to.
I am no modern day, female, James bond living it up while I take risks anyhow and come out unscathed. I repeat, whatever you do, resist every urge to get sucked into my perceived persona. It's all fake, people! SCAMMER ALERT!
I am actually a very boring fellow… I am full of fears and vulnerabilities and anxiety. Ok, those people who know me personally will start laughing here. Wait, now, don't you people find me boring in real life?
Honestly, I have gotten tired of telling people I am actually very boring off social media. When you say "keyboard warrior", that is me. I am all vocal, out spoken and agitated online but quiet, cool and generally unmoved offline. I am a slug. Exactly. I am a slug.
I am also a vampire. I think I fear day light like the sun would scald me and send me off in blazing chariots to hell. I am a night crawler. Now with this admission you'll think I go clubbing all night, meeting guys, getting laid left right and center. What did I say? Do not believe even a bit of it.
I am simply an insomniac, due to dyslexia, which keeps me assimilating and processing too much - even when I want to shut down- information constantly. So the brain cells are always working. Where I get 3 hours of sleep a night, I am really happy.
When I wake up, I find comfort in my blanket, some music and MORE thinking. I might write a poem or a letter or listen to music or work… work means anything including writing a book like this. It's 3 am here, right now. Or making a pair of shoes and a matching hand bag or a wig from scratch… or I am researching irrelevant shit. Every and anything but fun-fun. I said I am boring right? Very.
I had a neighbor who after observing me for several weeks came to ask if I am feeling unwell because since I moved in, about 3 weeks, I never pop out to participate in compound gossip. I said I was not unwell, so she asked if I would not get sick soon because even plants need sunlight to survive. I am laughing hysterically here because that sunlight….
What I daydream about is having all my fave things in life time supplies, having a bunker underground that can with stand any storm, bomb, or apocalypse.
I would move in there, eat and grow fat in peace, lock the doors and flush away the keys… never to emerge until the world ends and restarts… this is how boring I am. A complete introvert.
Is anybody changing their mind yet about meeting me? Well, you should.
So why am I still typing right? Especially when I've called you a moron for thinking I am this boring? Ok…. Come sit beside me, I will tell you…ready?
I am still typing and I am reiterating that you're a moron because you have allowed society to stereotype your mind. Society uses tags in order to handle the diverse personalities and possibilities that would be realized if everyone lives a full, uninhibited life as an individual.
Would you believe it if I told you that there are people on the planet that would love to wake up with, eat, sleep and live with a boring person exactly like me? Do you know that this my exact behavior is what one nice man has been praying for? To stay home after work, cuddle, watch movies etc, etc( Do not ask me what that means)
Do you know that there are people who would like to be alone with me? Yeah. Better believe it baby.
You'll soon say I am simply living in denial but here's the thing:
1. There are people who are like me, who would want to roll with someone who understands them and can relate and therefore they do not need to do too much explaining and adjusting? I complement such people.
2. Do you also know that there are people who are very different from me, who are totally intrigued by me and want to know more about me? Who would fall in love with my differences even though it drives them bat shit crazy? I challenge these people.
There are people who would love to alleviate my fears and insecurities and watch my introvertedness with awe?
So I ask you - Am I really a boring person? Or is that what society has taught you to think about me? Of a fact, not everyone can be outgoing, and outdoors man or a super risk taker and have zero fears. If so then we would all be someone's clone. Even God created us different in His own image.
Tags, strata, discrimination, segregation are very unnatural phenomena. These are all created by society to control, oppress and direct human thinking. If I feel I am boring, then I would want to be less boring. I would want to club, spend my money, buy things I do not need to impress people I do not even like.
I will be funding someone's excesses; I would be sending their kids to school and paying their debts. I would be buying lipstick, Gucci, and a Lamborghini or two for someone.
So, am I really boring or am I just Joy'o, trying to save her money and just relax? Am I just an introvert, comfortable in myself, happy as a clam in my company and consider myself lucky as a 4 leaved clover, when I can have uninhibited "alone-ALONE time"?
Check it: If people were classified and given the benefit of the doubt based on their own unique combination of genes which produce their own specific perspective to and purpose for life, how many possibilities would we have? How many inventors? How many initiators? How many divergents? How many people not being part of the herd mentality just to make it through this crazy life?
How many people would we have that cannot be counted, tagged and bagged, pinned down, controlled or subjugated and oppressed? Science will be too confused on a whole lot of discovery about humans - especially in behavior and personality.
As it is, because of the diversity in mental health, disorder and illness, science doesn’t have definite diagnoses, treatment or cure. Why? 'Cause mad people do not give a shit about nothing. They do not need approval, recognition or your sympathy even. They just need to be left alone to roam.
People are predominantly afraid of judgment and our stereotypical society, that they follow the crowd. They sink into the walls of society's expectations and tags. They run away from its hypocrites and hide.
Or they choose to be themselves and brave battle scars, some more grievous and deeper than others. Society does not allow us be in the middle and be individuals. We are either in a group by race, religion, nationality, financial class or more bullshit that does not harness the individual beauty we all have.
So… Do we agree that being alone doesn't necessarily mean being lonely? And that I am neither weird nor unapproachable? Or are you still a moron? and do you still think I am boring?
I would love to know what your thoughts are. Connect bellow in the comments. Thank you.
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THANK YOU SO MUCH. I AM AN INTROVERT AND EVERYONE KEEPS SAYING HOW I MUST BE OUT GOING LIKE THOSE ANNOYING EXTROVERTED BLOWHARDS. I GUESS WE ALL CAN LEARN TO COMPLEMENT EACH OTHER. ITS NOT A COMPETITION,NEITHER SHOULD THERE BE SO MUCH COMPARISON. WHAT IF WE JUST LEARN HOW EACH PERSON TICKS AND LET THEM LEARN HOW WE DO AS WELL. I THINK WE CAN THEN FIND WORLD PEACE.
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